WE HAVE THE POWER TO CHOOSE THE WAY WE WANT TO LIVE. TO THINK ANY OTHER WAY IS AN ILLUSION.
~Stacey D Persad
I am Stacey (call me Stace). I believe that we should help each other grow to experience the pure power within. We each deserve to enjoy life to the fullest. However, I do understand that there are times when we feel like happiness is an impossibility. Sometimes it helps when we can relate to someone’s story and learn from it.
We are all actors on the world’s stage and my roles include wife, mother, daughter and so many more. The roles we play on this earthly plane sometimes seem endless and at times we might feel like we are being pulled in a million directions. What if you only had one role? What would that role be?
Just after high school, I migrated to Canada from Trinidad. Yep, I am an island girl. And yes, I was mad with my parents for making me leave the all-year sunshine, beaches, friends, and the most awesome boyfriend (now my hubby).
There is an old saying that when the student is ready the teacher will appear. I didn’t realize that I was getting a whole staff. My 4 kids seem to have come into this world with some sort of mission to teach me. That’s right, they have been excellent teachers in the fields of Patience, Tolerance, Perseverance, and so much more.
Accounting is the career I pursued and I am grateful for the support that it has provided to me. However, the strings of my heart are being tugged on by my old friend, Writing. I also have a desire to learn spiritual, mystical, and religious philosophy. I love helping others when and where I can.
So I am at a juncture in my life where I sense a change is needed. I would love to put it all together whereby I can write and help others. I hope that sharing my experiences can help someone. It is my wish that each person receives the support that they need in their journey to see the ‘Light of Life’.
As part of fulfilling a dream and what I think is part of my life purpose, I wrote a book: Transformation~Keep it Simple. Writing this book has allowed me to reflect on how much I have grown and contemplate on the key factors in my personal transformation. The best part is that I get the opportunity to share this info with those who wish to receive it.
I had not planned on starting a website but I will have to trust the Universe once more. Where I am heading with this site? Not really sure but I know there is a bigger picture and this website is one tree in my particular forest. Not really focusing on the destination-just enjoying the journey.
Brief story of my transformation:
I used to be like the little pig that built a house of straws that could not withstand all the huffing and puffing. Everything bothered me—What people said or did—The way someone looked at me. It was like the wolf constantly blowing me away. I was so naive and even opened the door to allow the wolf in sometimes (thank God my name means resurrection).
The headaches that followed the worrying, anxiety, and crying were intense and unbearable at times. I spent many nights crying and wondering how I could be better even when it was someone else being ‘mean’ to me.
I was always seeking approval and forgiveness regardless of the situation. I blamed myself for things even when it was not my fault. The point is that I gave away my power by allowing my feelings to be influenced by others.
Why did I need approval? Why didn’t I believe in myself? My actions stalled if I didn’t get approval. Dreams floated away.
Why did I let harsh words get to me? Didn’t I know who I truly was? Why did it matter what people said about me? Opinions should not define me but yet it did affect me and again I cowered in the shadows.
Why did I need to feel accepted? How could I have expected others to accept me when I had not even accepted myself? I did not love myself enough to refuse pain or hurt.
The point is that I gave up much of my power willingly. This went on for years. The migraines intensified and my self-worth sank deeper and deeper. Social gatherings or any kind of get together was torture for me. Being an only child didn’t really help because there was no one to really talk to and express myself.
People had the impression that I have everything and that I had no need to feel depressed. Not sure what having everything had to do with feeling sad since I was not a materialistic child to begin with. My happiness was not dependent on things. It was more important as to how someone treated me than the material things they gave me.
I believe the year I lost a baby (I was six months pregnant) a lot changed. It was not the lost that changed me but events that followed. The silence I experienced when I took some time off created a certain amount of awareness.
I realized that I have to take responsibility for my happiness. All the crying was not washing away my ‘problems’. Alcohol was not able to dissolve the ‘problems’. After the tears and booze, the issues were still standing strong.
I started working on my virtues: Courage, Forgiveness, Patience, etc. These virtues were necessary to build my house of bricks. A house of bricks made it much harder for the wolf to get in.
The more strands that a rope has, the stronger it is. Each day I work on developing my virtues is like a strand of a rope. Over time, the rope (me) got stronger. Awareness was the key ingredient to start transforming my life and it is still very vital each and every day.
I must be wary so I keep building and working on maintaining my virtues since that wolf is always looking for new ways to enter my home. Yes, I have some amount of burglar proofing in my new brick house but when someone wants to get in, they will try all avenues and I must be prepared.
It is my greatest wish that you experience your true power in this lifetime and beyond. You have the power within you!