September 19, 2022
Dear Universe
Painters combine paint, brushstrokes, and imagination to produce something pleasing to the eyes. The chef arranges ingredients in a way that results in a delicacy that can bestow the most delightful sensations on our palate.
Writers/authors take an extraction of words from a vast vocabulary and put them together in an arrangement that can stir a variety of emotions. Well that is how my hubby expresses his idea of books. Totally agree and love it. Writers have the ability to take one on a roller coaster ride, sail off into a beautiful sunset with a lover, or even cause someone to pull a cover over their head.
My overall goal is to become a full time author and write amazing material that will stir readers in ways that they never imagined. Okay, so why am I not writing? Why am I not posting on this web page that I am paying to have up. Let’s get to the core of the matter.
I started this web page about two years ago. The aim was to write at least one post a week and complete another book. Well that never happened. I even set ‘writing time’ aside on certain days. I would get the phone reminders but not act on them. So what’s the problem. Well I need to be honest with myself if I am to solve this matter and fulfill my dreams.
TIME
Is time really an issue? Many writers get up early in the morning or write late at night. They write during their lunch or breaks. They write on the train or bus. They walk around with that little notebook and make use of all the time they get in between. So what’s my excuse? I have none. I wrote a book before and enjoyed every minute. I can do it again.
PERFECTION
I keep waiting to get it ‘perfect’ before I can post on the web page. If I am not comfortable I put it aside and months pass before I sit again with the post. I should take the same advice that I give to my kids: ‘It is okay to make mistakes. Sometimes when we make mistakes, we remember better. Mistakes are also indicating that we are doing something.’
FEAR AND CRITICISM
One of the reasons that I hold back on posting on the web page is because I worry that I may have misspelled something or the comma may be in the wrong place or some other issue. If there are errors, someone might say: ‘She wants to write and she is making mistakes like that.’ Mind you, 9 out of 10 people would say how awesome something is and I would somehow linger on 1 person who had no constructive criticism. I gotta toughen up and accept the rose with all its thorns.
So I will explore these three for today but there are so many other areas that I need to work on. I need to dig deep if I am to make changes.
PLAN OF ACTION:
- Set up a section on my web page called ‘Reflections & Growth’. It will act as a journal. In this section, I will reflect freely on issues that I am facing and wish to work on. I love journaling so my desire to journal and write on this page is covered in one action.
- Write and post at least once a week.
So two small steps for now. Let’s see how it goes.
Thank you Universe for the continued support and love.
